End.

At times, when we hear the way somebody important to us speak, we can just feel that they're starting to allow themself to think of other options and possibilities, the ones that we have nothing to do with.

I hope not, but probably I am, just an option. It's okay. I believe one day I will have somebody who really deserve my love, and love me just as much, whoever that is. I will be waiting for that time to come.

May everything we go through is worth it in the end.

Tired.

Too tired of everything. I hope it will all be worth it after all. May Allah guide us in our actions and give us strength when we need it. :)

Plain.

Not in a very long time have I felt this sensation. A feeling that's very plain and simple. Just too tired of explaining every single detail that people should've understood in the first place. "If you were me, what would you feel?"

Am I. Am I the one that needs to do the explaining every time? Even when I'm the one that needs an explanation?

Am I. Am I the one that needs to convince, even when I'm the one that needs to be convinced?

Am I. Am I the one that needs to calm myself down and calm other people down, when I'm the one in a situation I shouldn't easily be calm about?

This hits me very hard. I'm just too tired, that somehow, I feel calm. I hope this is not permanent, but right now, I don't feel like saying more.